But I don’t know where to start or to look next. This isn’t working, and something I’m doing is the reason it’s not working. I am determined to do something about it. Im not one to dwell or resign to a situation. I have no friends, no romantic prospects and I feel kind of lonely. I went to a gay bar a few times with some girls friends, but it was just lots of old ugly men who wanted me as a sex toy. The other half just wanted to have casual sex with anything right that second. I got hundreds of messages but half were creepy 50/60 year olds. And the very rare time I match with a guy who is my type, the conversation fizzles out because I suck at small talk. I could be friends with fem guys, but unlikely for a relationship. And on top of that, I’m pretty masculine and looking for the same. Honestly, I don’t find most guys attractive because I have a pretty defined type. The main point is: I want to meet some gay people my age to be mates and maybe more. I’m trying to find new friends but that’s besides the point. I mean, there’s people who like me and ask me to hang out, but I don’t feel like I belong. I also don’t have any good friends anymore, just acquaintances. I went to a moderately-conservative all boys school and I don’t know any gay people. Where are straight-acting gay guys 18-29 in Melbourne?
